7.10.2007

Are we there yet?

I've always thought of myself as someone who was good at handling stress. Prided myself on it really. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right?

Now, we finally find ourselves moving on - something we've been waiting to do for a long time. But between the planning, packing and financial loss associated with the move, and work, fear of losing my job due to budget cuts, fear of not being able to pay for schooling due to losing my job to budget cuts, I seem to be genuinely losing it.

Take for instance this evening when I broke out in tears at least three times. Once before "Harry Potter" started as I realized the 10-year-old girls in the row beside me would be able to tell their friends that they got to see a special sneak preview of the movie. (Huh?!) A few times during the movie. Once after the movie on the car ride "home" after I got thinking about how much I loved my husband for always comforting me and making me feel so loved.

Yes sir. I am an absolute wreck. An emotional wreck. My highs are high. My lows low. I'm angry one minute. Sad the next. Crying from happiness after that.

With all that in mind, I'd like take this opportunity to apologize to all my dear friends and family for the many (unnecessary) mood swings you may have been privy to as of late. Turns out, I have been deeply humbled and overcome by this juncture in our lives. I thank you for being there and for helping us through.

Almost there...

8 comments:

A. said...

Hang in there! And when all else fails, turn on Dropkick Murphys really, really loud and sing along. Great stress reliever.

Two/Dos Pretzels said...

HUG

Mz Benz said...

Just think, it could be worse... you could have your entire career/future/relationship hinging upon a two-day exam that you have to take in two weeks. I realized I hit rock bottom today when I forgot to bring my laptop to lecture to take notes, and slammed my book to the floor in a fit of childish rage. Stress is ever-present lately.

Mz Benz said...

(Not that I am discounting your own stresses of course. Sorry to hear things have been rough lately. Hang in there Tiny!)

Curtis & Becky said...

You always know my ears are open and friends are for helping each other from the lows. A few more days and you will be free!

Anonymous said...

Hey, think of it this way...even the strongest of us have our boiling point. Don't beat yourself for being human, it's only natural to worry about problems that seem to have no solution in sight. I've found that focusing on that which I can control and leaving that which I can't to unfold as it will leaves me feeling...well, in control :-)

jk said...

Keep holding on! Things can only get better, right?! When I'm feeling overwhelmed, I always like to take a 'mental' health sick day. Sometimes you have to force yourself to just relax and do something you enjoy...for me it may be shopping or baking :-) I think we've all be there, so if you need to talk, I'm here!

Tiny said...

Thank you so much everyone. I appreciate you all so much.

I know I'll probably be laughing about my craziness very soon... :)